I needed a change. This website is so much of me — I didn’t mean for it to be like this when I started it, but it’s become inextricably linked with the person I am and the uncanny and dark and now-blurry journey I’ve been on for the past few years. I do not want a clean slate. I am not a clean slate. But with the unconditional and endless love and support of my friends and family (and therapists), the grace of God, and a great deal of hard work on my own part, I woke up several weeks ago and it occurred to me that I am a remarkably functional and sane human being today. I am happy today, happy in my own skin, happier than I’ve been in a really long time. And it’s been like that for quite awhile now. People notice; they ask me why my face looks different. It’s a strange question to be asked and an even stranger question to answer, particularly in the absence of actual plastic surgery. I tell them I’ve lost weight. It’s easier than “I stopped being crazy.”
I’ve been asked out on more dates in the past three weeks than in the past six months combined. People notice.
I feel like I’ve shed the skin of the person I have been in the not-so-distant past, and I wanted to shed a skin here, on my Internet doppelganger. I wanted it colorless and I wanted it simple. I want to take more pictures and video. I want to share more things that I think are interesting or amusing. I want it to be more fun around here, because my life is a lot more fun these days. And most of you have been around here, loyal, reading, commenting, emailing through years of the dark parts. I hope you all stay around for the wonderful and bright parts. And I hope that, when there are dark parts, as there always are, that you will be here then, too.
You are super cute! And the jammies RAD!
I love it. Cheers to you
That picture is GORGEOUS! As one born with poor tooth enamel, I have luckily avoided cavities, but will never have teeth as gorgeous as yours (unless I become rich) and I hope you LOVE them. Anyway that picture is just so beautiful, I really love it! You’re glowing, woman! Good job!
I do love them, and I’m grateful to my parents for spending a billion dollars to get them to look like this when I was a kid. :)
I’m jealous! My mom spent tons of money between the ortho and dentist, but still, the best they could do is adequate (I want to spell it adequite like Lindsay Lohan SO bad, but people would actually think I’m the stupid one). Mine look fine and healthy, but not AWESOME. I am actually getting them prettied up next week and I am so excited. It’s expensive but it will make me feel better, even if it is for vanity’s sake. Wow, this is long. I guess I’m just excited that Sasha replied to my lil’ message.
Life isn’t meant to be easy, we all go through these terrific ups and terrible downs and what matters the most is how you come out of it all in the end. I love reading about how happy you are and how successful you’ve been “dealing with life”, it’s absolutely fantastic!! And, although we haven’t seen each other in a number of years, just by reading your blogs, I can “see” the difference. *hugs*
Thank you so much, Jo! I miss seeing you and I hope you’re doing well!
As someone who has never met you, I can still genuinely say that I’m really happy for you.
Awww, that warms my heart, it genuinely does.
I’ve been reading your site for almost a year and am so glad that you’re in a good place now, you deserve it. You are such a great writer–your site takes me away from the daily grind for a few minutes of the day, so thank you! I love the redesign of your site!
Cute photo! Like the clean white site!
Love the site, and your eyes are SO beautiful!! Such a gorgeous look!! Glad to know you’re in a better place now.