Hello loves! I am doing just fantastic today! I had a freakin’ AMAZING time on the retreat. For the first time in a very long time, I felt completely unplugged and relaxed. I walked around with no purse, no keys, no cell phone, nothing in my pockets. I ate yummy, healthy food and I went on hikes and I did yoga and I made lots of friends. I went to bed at a reasonable hour, although I did struggle to get up and stay up in the morning. But I had a very nice roommate who liked to wake me up at 6 am by screaming “Good morning! It’s a great day to be alive!” and for some reason it didn’t even bother me; I found it endearing. I read a little bit and I took naps, but in general I didn’t have any opportunity to isolate. I was always around other people. I think that, above all, was why this felt so relaxing. I spend so much of my life alone, and stuck in my own head, and it was wonderful to just have absolutely zero opportunity to do that. Wherever I went, whatever I did, there were people around. It was such a relief. I mean, really, it was like a huge weight was lifted off my shoulders just to know that I was never going to be alone. I want to go on a retreat every weekend.
I got home around 1:30pm today (I got to ride the ferry, which is always exciting for me), and Trisha came over and we went to Pike Place to go shopping for our juice fast. I know, I know, not everyone is very gung-ho about me doing a juice fast, but I don’t think I’ll ever be convinced it’s a bad idea until I’ve tried it. So Trish and I are doing it together. She came over with her Great Dane, and I took Leo, and we hit the fresh produce section of Pike Place. After living in Seattle for a year and a half, I completely refuse to buy produce at a normal grocery store. I won’t even consider it; it disgusts me. I’ve become such a total snob about eating fresh, locally grown produce. Lucky for me, the biggest and best farmers market in the country is a mile and a half from my house. We bought TONS of food: carrots, tomatoes, beets, mangoes, strawberries, parsley, apples, peaches, cucumbers, celery, oranges, cilantro, basil, pineapple. We had four giant bags filled with produce, enough for the two of us and Trisha’s husband (no longer fiance!!!!), who’s also going to do the juice fast. It only cost us $50 total, which is actually not all that bad when you consider this is what we plan to eat for three days. It comes out about $17 per person, or around $6 per day per person. Not bad at all.
Oh, and I also bought a Jack LaLanne Power Juicer at Target, which I think was like $90. But let me tell you — this thing is fucking AWESOME. I got home and immediately starting juicing things, and it is basically the most fun activity I’ve ever participated in since I used to do cocaine. I mean, it’s just fucking incredible. It juices anything. And I realized that I don’t think I’ve ever tasted genuinely fresh fruit and vegetable juice. It is soooo good. I never thought I liked carrot juice, but I actually LOVE carrot juice, just not the gross over-processed stuff you normally get at the store. When you juice a carrot and then immediately drink the juice, you can totally taste all the healthiness of it; it’s like it sparkles in your mouth and energizes you. It’s completely different from juice that’s been sitting in the glass for even 20 or 30 minutes. I just can’t stress enough how freakin’ delicious this juice is.
And just to clarify, and to ward off the comments I’m expecting about this, I am not going on a juice fast to lose weight. Let me repeat that: I AM NOT GOING ON A JUICE FAST TO LOSE WEIGHT. I’m doing it more as a spiritual and mindfulness exercise; to attempt to let go of my need to always be eating something, to just be more aware of exactly what I’m putting in my body every day. If it ends up feeling unhealthy and punishing, I’ll stop. But I think it could be a really positive growth experience for me, to help change the way I think about food and about consumption. Plus, did I mention that fresh-squeezed juice is really fucking good?
Last thing: For those of you who asked about the results of the Vi Peel. It did improve my skin to some extent. It definitely reduced the discoloration of the acne scarring and gave my skin a “fresher” glow, but I wouldn’t do it again. It wasn’t worth the peeling, the breakouts, and the burning. Maybe I’d do it again in ten years when my skin doesn’t look youthful naturally, but the reason I did it was to clear up acne scarring, and it wasn’t useful enough in that respect for me to want to do it again anytime soon.