Juice fast is officially broken! I have to say, it felt sooooo good to eat real food. I wanted to keep on my healthy kick, so I went to my favorite vegan restaurant in town, Chaco Canyon Cafe, and got a pesto melt and a Thai peanut rice bowl. I ate the pesto melt for an early dinner and then the rice bowl a few hours later.
I have to say, I feel incredible. I have really been happy lately, like a very healthy, internal happiness. I just want to smile all the time, and I wander around the world and make funny jokes in my head and then laugh at them. I’m delighted with myself, just so happy in my skin. And not in a crazy manic delusional way — rather, in a way that feels solid and real and maybe even sustainable. Also, I played really, really well in my volleyball game tonight, like probably the best I’ve played since I lived in LA and played daily. I wonder if my focus and hand/eye coordination improved as a result of the fast.
I swear, changing my diet has a transformative effect on my mood. It’s just like how I was so happy when I was eating pure vegan. Just getting the crap out of my diet helps me to be a way happier person. I forget how physiologically based my moods are. If I just put good, clean stuff into my body, it produces lots of the right chemicals and neurotransmitters and I feel great. Wiggles even said today that cleaning out my digestive system is probably helping my body to produce neurotransmitters. Or something like that. I don’t understand the science at all, but I do know that when I do health kicks like this my mood is just wonderful. So I believe that it’s working somehow.
The problem is I’m sure at some point I’ll decide I need to eat a Snickers bar and a greasy pizza, and then it’ll trigger all those bad-food cravings again, and I’ll start eating like crap again. I’m trying to think positively, and I’m even emailing with a nutritionist to maybe work on a food plan with her. But I just know that I always spiral down into unhealthy eating eventually, and I don’t know how to prevent that. But, today, I am healthy and happy!
