I’ve spent the whole damn day writing. Not on Evil Beet, not on Zelda Lily, and frankly I don’t even want to be writing on here. My writing engine is sputtering, to say the least. I’ve been writing and writing to try to figure out what I want to do with my life in the next year, and how best to go about doing that. I met with Dr. Wiggles. I met with another advisor. Both told me to write. So I’ve been writing. I’ve been writing my goals and my hopes and I’ve been writing my resume. As I’ve said earlier, I feel like there’s a change on the horizon for me, I just don’t know what it is or in what form it will come. I’ve been told that if I have a clear sense of what I want for myself, the universe can deliver it. But if I’m all wishy-washy inside, the universe doesn’t know what to do. I’m trying to create this clear sense of direction and desire, and it’s been tricky for me.
And no, I’m not planning on shutting down Evil Beet, nothing like that. But I’m toying with the idea of perhaps setting someone up to manage EB and ZL full-time, and then taking a normal full-time job myself. There. I said it. I’m toying with the idea that perhaps a highly structured life would benefit me. There is zero structure in my life right now, and it’s not healthy for me. My brain needs firmer rules in place, otherwise it just wanders off and thinks about whatever the hell it wants, and it’s never anything good.
But if I’m going to take on a “real” job in a “real” office, it would have to be something challenging, engaging, interesting in a corporate culture I like and with people I enjoy being around. Otherwise I’ll just wind up worse off.
It’s hard, though. I don’t know exactly what kind of job I’d want or be good at. I don’t want to go back into software development, but I think it would be fun to oversee strategy for a software company. I want to be in a big company with a lot of ideas, to help mold those ideas and to help them grow and improve and to help them find a market. That’s what I’m good at. It’s hard, though, because my resume basically just says that I, uh, run a couple of blogs. It’s hard to ask someone to hire you into a senior-level business position based on that, despite the fact that I have an MBA. I was trying to write my resume tonight and I realized that I have absolutely no idea how to even describe all the bazillion things I do over at Evil Beet and Zelda Lily. I know I bring the skill-set necessary to the table, but I’m sure how to phrase that in the context of a celebrity gossip blogs.
So here’s where I’d like suggestions:
1) What kind of job do I want? Be specific.
2) What would you say, for a resume, that I do at Evil Beet and Zelda Lily?
Help would be MUCH APPRECIATED.
(Oh, and when I wrote “Find a relationship” on that list, I stared at it for a minute and then I crossed it out. It occurs to me again and again: In my gut, I do not want a relationship right now. I’m not ready. I’m busy with other stuff. Interesting.)
