I love that you said that about the shower. I can just sit in there and let the water pour over me and it seems to calm me down. I feel kind of bad about wasting the water, but hey, at least I am not running a sprinkler on the sidewalk, right? =) Swimming used to make me feel the same way. I need to get over the horrible thought of being seen in a swimming suit and just go.

1. Having to take care of someone other than myself. I might not care enough about myself at times but I’ll never fail them (maybe Leo is like that for you).

2. Eating pure…the less meat, the better (are you still eating Vegan?)

3. Avoiding all artificial sweeteners. This stuff affects your brain chemistry.

4. Work out daily (you seemed SO good when you were running)

5. ALWAYS be aware of your internal dialogue and ARGUE with that shit head in your mind when you KNOW it is wrong. I find that my logic is always there but I have to dig for it sometimes because the shit head will try to hide it somewhere in my head where I can’t access it.

6. Calms Forte and Rescue Remedy…see a health food store. I once saw a woman freaking out because a man who had raped her walked into the store. She started hyperventilating. Withing 5 minutes of the Rescue Remedy, she was calm enough to approach things logically.

7. Vitamins - at least a good multi

8. Morning sun…plenty of it

9. Surrounding yourself with others

10. Deep breathing and meditation

Please, please, please look into a gentle detox for your liver. I use a daily detox tea and actually enjoy the flavor. Our livers filter our blood and detox our systems. It’s so important to undo the bad effects of the meds so we can experience the good effects.

Do I do all this stuff all the time? No. I wouldn’t have the crazy feeling if I did but like you, I can feel it coming on, I recognize it and I start the measures of counter attack.

I hope you feel better soon becaue you WILL feel better. It’s just the cycle of things.

My prayers and thoughts are with you. Please forgive the spelling and gramatical errors.

You are an awesome writer, gifted. Lots of gifted people have suffered with this kind of problem. Hang in there. We all love you.

XOXO!

Keep in mind that it takes time for the meds to build back up to a theraputic leel if you’ve been off of them for awhile.

Eat really well, absolutely no junk. I’m a fiend for this and I really think it’s key.

So glad you’re with your family, they sound wonderful.

Hugs.

I’m right there with you on the crazy. I have PTSD and anxiety is such a major aspect of my life. I hate it, and I can completely relate to it coming and going and waking up with it.

I’m not on meds; I got sick of messing of with the doses and then trying new stuff. It is so frustrating and annoying, at least for me. You should be really proud of yourself for even making the effort to deal with doctors and dosages.

There are lots of tips out there to help w/anxiety, but for me none of them work. Exercise, watching television, reading, etc. They just don’t help me personally. I usually just have to just let it run its course, which sucks. It could be hell for 15 minutes or for hours.

If you ever need to talk, I’m here.

Oh, and remember, you’re not crazy. No matter how shitty you feel or how bad your anxiety is, you’re not crazy. I’m super hard on myself when I have any sort of behavior that is less than perfectly calm and collected. I feel like I need to 100% all the time, everyday and always make all the right choices lol. So, just be kind to yourself :)

I know its hard to do but sometimes I write a list of the things I am thankful for when I am really sad. It usually gives me some perspective. Oh and go to fmylife.com, it can’t get worse than that, unless you had what happened to me this week, which could totally go on that site easily.

You are loved