I’m officially a Seattlite now!
I went to REI tonight and purchased the following items: a snow jacket, gloves, a scarf, a little snow cap, snow pants and cold-weather running pants. I look so cute and snowy in my new gear! I put it all on in the apartment and showed it off to Leo. He was not impressed. That’s because Leo looks way cool tonight too. The housekeepers brought him a Christmas present — a pimp little light-blue knitted sweater with a huge hood. It has a little button at the neck that comes undone and exposes his chest, like he’s a Miami Vice puppy. He knows he looks good tonight.
Anyway.
I drove everywhere today. It was liberating and terrifying. I drove on the hills in Belltown and Queen Anne, including the side streets that haven’t been cleared or salted. My truck is still in the shop, so I’m doing all this is a ‘98 coupe with shitty brakes. People looked at me from the sidewalks like I was fucking crazy. I probably am. My car skidded a lot. One hill I couldn’t make it up, so I had to reverse down and try another path. But, ya know, I was fine. I realized that I’d rather have it be scary in my car than scary in my head. I was okay during the day today.
Now it’s 10 pm and I’m home and all alone and totally bummed again. This time of year is really hard, I guess. I just imagine everyone else doing these super fun, festive, familial things, surrounded by people and drinks and laughter, and I’m just kind of all alone, and it’s kind of unbearable. I’m looking forward to going home on Tuesday and always having people to be around. It probably won’t be very festive, but at least I won’t be alone.
I always envision the same things. Just remember, you can be lonely with a house full of people.
Wendie is exactly right. I don’t get along with my SIL so the holidays kinda suck for me. However, my best friend is Jewish and her birthday is the 24th so she usually stops by and puts a little sunshine in an otherwise somewhat unpleasant day :)
I’m lonely with a household full of people..
Sorry! Sasha will beat me if I dont utilize the threaded commenting. Me too sometimes.
LOL @ Wendie. THANK YOU.
Woohoo, me too sometimes.