I’m officially a Seattlite now!
I went to REI tonight and purchased the following items: a snow jacket, gloves, a scarf, a little snow cap, snow pants and cold-weather running pants. I look so cute and snowy in my new gear! I put it all on in the apartment and showed it off to Leo. He was not impressed. That’s because Leo looks way cool tonight too. The housekeepers brought him a Christmas present — a pimp little light-blue knitted sweater with a huge hood. It has a little button at the neck that comes undone and exposes his chest, like he’s a Miami Vice puppy. He knows he looks good tonight.
Anyway.
I drove everywhere today. It was liberating and terrifying. I drove on the hills in Belltown and Queen Anne, including the side streets that haven’t been cleared or salted. My truck is still in the shop, so I’m doing all this is a ‘98 coupe with shitty brakes. People looked at me from the sidewalks like I was fucking crazy. I probably am. My car skidded a lot. One hill I couldn’t make it up, so I had to reverse down and try another path. But, ya know, I was fine. I realized that I’d rather have it be scary in my car than scary in my head. I was okay during the day today.
Now it’s 10 pm and I’m home and all alone and totally bummed again. This time of year is really hard, I guess. I just imagine everyone else doing these super fun, festive, familial things, surrounded by people and drinks and laughter, and I’m just kind of all alone, and it’s kind of unbearable. I’m looking forward to going home on Tuesday and always having people to be around. It probably won’t be very festive, but at least I won’t be alone.
